Miss Lois Rose: 2013

New Items: 1!

03:43

Jumper - eBay Trousers - TK Maxx Shoes - New Look

Hello everyone! I Haven't being on in ages, so since my last posts, i now have a short fringe and finally got my nose pierced woo!
Anyways, hope you've all had a lovely Christmas and got everything you hoped for.

I got lots of lovely clothes, because as we all know they are my favourite thing!

So I'll have lots of blogposts coming with all my new items yay!

For the first one i decided to do it on this outfit, and every single item is new.

I knew about all my clothes because I like to chose my own. These trousers are a bit like disco pants but they're leather look ones instead, I love that they're highwaisted, gives them a vintage feel and they are really flattering. I got these from TK Maxx which as we all know is one of my favourite shops!

Now onto my jumper! HOW LUSH!? Just look at it and take in it's beauty!

I first saw this jumper on an American website, think it was something like $50, so I went straight onto eBay and typed it in on the off chance they may have it and they did, it ended up being like 8 pound something from China, TOTAL BARGAIN! It's one size so it fits from an 8-12, which is okay cause i love baggy things. This jumper caught my attention straight away because it's really unusual and quirky one off items are my thang.

My shoes are from New Look, I've never being able to save up for Doc Martens because there's always so many clothes items I want and i just end up buying more converse. I'm not that bothered about having the proper things atm, who knows I may save up in the future without spending it beforehand but probably not(; So yeah, saw these in New Look, they are so lovely! Patent black and the bottom is grey and glittery. They should have being £30 but they was on special promotion at £15, so obviously I snapped them up, I'm a pro at finding bargains!

I never usually wear much makeup, just tinted moisturiser, a bit of blusher and lipstick, always have to wear a lipstick, i feel naked without. But today i decided to go for a full vintage look with the eyes too, by doing elegant cat eye flicks, really thick fluttery lashes and of course red lipstick. I bought a new gel liner and I find they are the best, more accurate and easy to apply and a new mascara. (I'll do a post with all the new makeup i bought recently). For the hair i just clipped it up at the back and made it into a messy beehive.

Love,

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Therapy Letter.

Anxiety 10:46

I wrote in a post before about me suffering with mental illness, I'm sick of there being this massive stigma around it and I just want to keep raising awareness about it, showing people they are not alone and it's nothing to be ashamed of. I wanted to share my therapy letter with you because my psychologist thinks it's very powerful and reassuring, so here it is.

When I first started therapy I already knew what to expect as I’d had CBT before, but I’m going to be honest and say that it didn’t work for me. I guess it was just the wrong time and the wrong person. I think it’s so important that whoever you see you jell with, so you feel that you can really open up to them and allow them to help you. And also it has to be the right time for you, you have to really want it and be really motivated to go for it and work hard. Come into therapy with an open mind, if you come in being negative thinking this will never work, then chances are it won’t.

Like I said I had CBT last year, but it didn’t work, I wasn’t in the right frame of mind or motivated enough to really take it in, and put in the amount of effort needed. Also I really didn’t jell with my therapist at the time.

Things in my life got so bad I just didn’t see any point in it anymore. I didn’t even want to get out of bed, couldn’t even walk out of the front door without panicing. I was just stuck with the overwhelming feeling of hopelessness, I lost interest in everything, stopped looking after myself, sounds gross but even stopped showering at my lowest point, stopped talking to people, stopped eating. I really just didn’t care about anything at all. I was just stuck in this bubble, watching everyone around me growing up and living their life. Eventually I thought, I can carry on with this horrible downward spiral or I can do something about it while I still can. So I did, I decided to come back to therapy and give it another go, but this time I was ready for things to change, I was motivated and was ready for the challenges I needed to face. Therapy has helped me so much, it’s helped me to start thinking more positive and see a light at the end of the tunnel, to see that things are possible if you put your mind to it and gain more confidence in myself. I’m nowhere near fully recovered, it’s a long draining process, and I still get relapses, but I will continue to keep fighting every step of the way!

From the very first session with Amy, I jelled with her and felt so comfortable opening up to her. She was so lovely and always listened to me and tried her very best to help me. She’s given me so many techniques and things to help me cope with my anxiety, depression and eating.

CBT can work for you too, but as I said, you have to be very committed, if you give up at the first hurdle you will never get better, come in with an open mind, ready to face the challenges you have ahead on the way to recovery.

If you are suffering with mental illness then please tell someone and get help. Just know that it won't be like this forever, you are worth it and it will get better.

Love,

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